CANT HELP THIS FEELING !!!!!!!!!

I cant help this feeling and I
Pray to god that I am wrong
I say it becoz it bothers me
Not trying to write a song

Bothered uneasy may be even sad
Affecting u a lot are experiences u had
Maybe concerned that ur heart might break
You are hesitating to give life another take

Open up to me
And I will be a friend forever
For I swear to be honest
Cant promise clever

Will never break your heart
And I mean what I say
Will stand by you forever
AND ONLY IF I MAY

Not trying to be a hero
Just trying to help
Cant pretend to be indifferent
Unable to stop myself

Ohh and if u think otherwise
Of me like other guys
And that I sud just back off….
Mind my business and lay off

Do not stop or hesitate
U just need to mention …
Cause adding to your troubles
Was never my intention…..

AB TU HI BATA ......???

Mai khush bhi hun
Mujhe dar bhi hai
Ye khwab hi sahi
Par kuch sach bhi hai

Kuch to hai yakin
Kuch shak bhi hai …
Kya tujhpe mera koi hak bhi hai ….

Tera mera tu-tu - main-main
Ye tera mera nok-jhok
Mujhe achha lagta hai
Manjur nahi koi rok-tok

Kuch to hai yakin
Kuch shak bhi hai …
Kya tujhpe mera koi hak bhi hai ….

ONCE AGAIN .......back to square 1

amazing it seemed in the beginning
had fun always, & njoid everything


good time and some friendly fight
felt everything was gonna be alright


but i was wrong, it was a blunder
dreams came crashing, hit by thunder


once again i lie, with a broken heart
i guess its true, i aint so smart


its painful & its gonna stay for a while
i wish i could hide the pain with a fake smile


tried being indifferent, just doesnt work
pretend to be happy but life does suck
once again i lie, with a broken heart
i guess its true, i aint so smart

SECOND INNINGS

Wow ......am back on the blog almost after 2-3 years ....... And yes, i feel ashamed to be saying this because I remember I had promised myself that this would never happen.......after all I do this for ME. (Although, it was not that I did not try to be here more often, it was just a stupid phase of my life :-( ) will remember this as 'second innings'......... :-)

MAY BE..............JUST MAY BE

may be its false
may be its true
may be i dont
may be i do

may be i am lost
may be i am sure
may be i am ok
may be i need a cure

may be she is rit
may be i am wrong
may be i feel it
all of these just cant only be a song


may be am just an 'another guy'
making a point, hoping she would buy

may be i am stupid
may be i can't see
may be i messed up
being where i shouldnt be


may be she knows it
may be she don't
may be i ll get around it
may be i wont

may be i should move on
may be i dont know how
may be i should wait a little longer
may be i should do it now


may be she has a reason
may be she has no choice
may be i did not say it loud enough
may be she did not hear my voice

may be she has another plan
may be she does not trust me
may be its an impossible story
which is just not meant to be


MAY BE
JUST MAY BE

I MISS YOU......

no matter how hard i tried
no matter if i laughed or cried

and Even if i told you i would never lie
and even if i told you "i would rather die"

I could never make you believe
that I never wanted you to leave

.
.
.
.

no matter how many words i use......
no matter what language i choose....

Even if i spend all of my time
and even if i make it all rhyme.....

i could never put it in verse for you
"YOU HAVE NO CLUE HOW MUCH I MISS YOU"

jo D

Dear Jo D,


you are five feet something and i am six feet two
still want you to know...that i always look up to you


i know you hate me smoke
and the fact that i always end up broke

i know you hate me for not dieting
and a few other things i cant be writing

but of all the things you would not like
is to see me give up without a fight

and here i am pledging before thee
that you would never ever EVER see

that i give up or i loose hope
i also promise i shall never take to dope


you will not find me ever sob and cry
this one i dont promise, but i'll try

But there are a few things that i shall always do
looking for some answers no one has - i call you

whenever i want someone to hear me out
i feel the need to call you, have no doubt

the next few lines will make no rhyme
i tried my best , but iam running out of time
(you are waiting for me for dinner...rit)

when i am nervous i call you
when i am in trouble i call you
whenever i need to talk... you are always there
i dont know what you do and i dont know how you do it
but somehow anything and everything you say makes so much sense to me
and please tell me how do you have answers for every question i ask
no matter how stupid and pointless


SO, the point i am trying to make here - you see
is that you make my life a lot easier for me


HAPPY RAKSHA BANDHAN DIDI




BY THE WAY

The best part is that although i can never thank you enough
i never feel the need to do so

but she never did.......

a long walk home alone wondering what went wrong
she said she would come but she never did......

i thought we would be together for always and forever...
she said she meant it too but she never did

i waited all day long
she had said she would call but she never did.....

YOU

I lost my aspirations

I lost my dreams

Or was it just my purpose

I could keep guessing and it wont make a difference.




I lost friendship

I lost love

Or was it just my soul

I could keep guessing and it wont make a difference.





I lost you to time

I lost you to fate

Or was it just destiny .

I could keep guessing and it wont make a difference.




All i wanted was you and i lost

I could keep trying and it wont make a difference.

IF ONLY

If yesterday could change

If tomorrow could be different

If only I did not see her today


If I could run to her

If she could look back once

If only she would stay


If I could speak my mind

If she could understand my silence

If only her heart could listen


If I could fight the world

If she could stand by me

If only the love was enough


If only I could hate her

If only she could give me a reason

If only

IF ONLY